So, after work today, I went looking for a dress for a special dinner I have tomorrow night. I’ve been looking around for something for the last few weeks but haven’t found anything and wanted to give it another go this evening. All I can say is this: shopping in NYC boutiques can make you feel like shit. I am not a size zero, nor have I ever been. I don’t walk around with flashy jewelry, clothes, or bags. Which I guess discounts me for most salesgirls when I walk through the door. I went to one place where I asked for a large in a dress. The woman looked at me, cocked her head, and said, “We don’t carry larges…..” She was running around getting the size 00 in the dressing room all of the things she was screaming for, and basically treated me like I was invisible. I felt like this in a number of the stores I walked into, which all seemed to carry nothing bigger than a size 6.
Now, I’ve never been a size zero, like I said. I seriously think I skipped over that size in middle school- no joke. I was one of those girls who gained a lot of weight at 13 and went from a size 16 kids to a size 16 adults in a couple of years. So for me to now be a size 8, 10, or 12 (depending on the brand) is an accomplishment. I am a big girl- I have broad shoulders, a large rib cage, and a chest. And I should feel proud of how good I look because I have worked damn hard to do so. Why am I telling you guys all this? I guess because I realized today that its so important to have real confidence in yourself before you walk into a store or pick up a magazine. Don’t give those things the power to tell you that you are not enough the way that you are.
I guess what I am saying is this: if you eat well, work out, and are a size 12, then maybe that’s where you are supposed to be. If you don’t work out, eat junk, and feel lethargic, but are a size 4, then maybe you should change things up a bit. Size and weight are just numbers- its about how you feel in your body that matters, because you are the best person to judge your heath. If you eat well and feel energetic, muscular, and strong, then don’t let a number dictate how you feel about yourself.
This story actually has a happy ending, because in the last store I went into on Atlantic Avenue, called Maleeka, I met the nicest woman in the world, Maleeka, who runs the place. She did carry size 8 dresses and I found one that was perfect. More so, we got into a long conversation about the fashion industry and the plastic surgery industry, and all the crap they feed us to make us feel like we need to change ourselves physically to become happy, beautiful people. I loved all she had to say, and her store was wonderful- they carry bags, jewlery, and lots of cute dresses (kind of an urban bohemian style), many of which are now on sale. Anyhow, Maleeka made my day! I love my new dress and will post pictures of it tomorrow night— I will tell you guys about the special event tomorrow!
So, sorry for my long shpeal… just had to get it out there. This is kind of like my online journal, and, on days where I am frustrated or upset, I am not going to hide it from you guys- especially when it pertains to health and happiness.
While I was walking around, I had a black iced tea with a splash of soy milk from Starbucks.
I also passed by this bakery called Downtown Atlantic. I’ve never gone in, but I always admire their cupcakes from the window. How beautiful are they?!
I must stop in and try one very soon!
Yes, I went a little photo-happy at the window. But who wouldn’t?
When I got home, I was tiiired. I feel like I’ve been on my feet all day. I just made a salad and “cooked” some turkey hot dogs on the stove. These are Applegate Farms uncured turkey hot dogs (no nitrates added). I had 2 (they only have 40 calories- which is crazy!), a whole wheat bun, and a big scoop of salad – spinach, peppers, carrots, cucumber, some TJ’s mild fresh salsa dressed in lime, balsamic, and olive oil.
Topped with McClure’s relish- my favorite.It was good!
Alright guys, I’m calling it a night. I might take a break from law school work tonight because tomorrow I get off work early and will have the afternoon to work on my apps! Plus, after today, I need a break…
P.S. I’m not hating on all salesgirls- I know plenty of them are nice, and I am sure that some of you have worked in sales before. I’m just speaking about my general experience in some very snooty boutiques in Brooklyn- hope I did not offend any of you wonderful readers!