So, this post isn’t about food… for once…. but I just wanted to write an honest post about something that’s been going on.
I’m not sure how many of you have read my “About Me” page, but if you did, you learned about how I had a Vestibular/ Balance Disorder that I dealt with for almost 1 1/2 years before it went away. It was awful. After having a virus in 2007, I began to feel like I was walking on a boat at all times. It felt like the floor was moving when I walked, and I had really sharp dizzy spells every once in a while. I saw about 8 doctors, many of them neurologists with big reputations, who all told me it was psychological, before I found a doctor of Physical Therapy who actually understood this stuff. She diagnosed me with Labyrinthitis, a damaged inner ear which leads to an overall feeling of dizziness or imbalance. Shegave me a set of exercises that I had to do 2 times a day (that made me really dizzy!) in order to retrain my brain to cope with this permanent injury- and to feel balanced in spite of it.
Well, as I have sort of hinted in the last week, with all of the stress and fatigue and possible sickness I have been feeling, symptoms of “imbalance” have been creeping up on me again. This is very scary for me and I tried to ignore it for a while, but the symptoms have gotten really strong.
I have felt 100% good and balanced since January when I left treatment. I have staid active- very active- and have tried to be as healthy as possible- eating well, taking vitamins, resting, etc. But, this is a weak spot in my body and, as my PT wrote in my discharge papers, it can be aggravated by stress, anxiety, sickness, and a change in the weather. Unfortunately, all 4 of those things are going on right now.
I started doing my exercises again about a week ago, twice a day. Unfortunately, this feeling has gotten worse, not better- to the point where it is hard to walk around outside for long periods of time. The exercises are so hard on the brain that often people feel even more out of whack when they start doing them. I remember that from the first time and its definitely the case again. I also called my PT’s office but, apparently, she had a baby and is on maternity leave… just my luck! I left her a message and am hoping she gets back to me next week with some advice.
I guess I’m telling you all this because, after all, this is a health blog- and my blog- and I’m not feeling all that healthy right now. If you don’t see me exercising as much as usual, you’ll know why. I am supposed to push myself (and my brain) as much as I can, but I don’t always feel like it. But lying around in bed all day will only make it worse, because that will basically tell my brain that its fine to sit back, be lazy, and just chill. But it has to work hard to get better. I guess the one good thing about this happening again is that, after going through hell the first time, I know a little more about what is going on. Still sucks, though.
I hope this goes away soon, but I just don’t know… its been very hard for me to accept that its come back. Not much else to say, just wanted to be honest with you guys. I’m going to keep blogging, because it is something I love. Just hope you guys will understand- this girl will not be running a Marathon anytime soon! I’m trying to stay “normal” and active and to do “fun” things like I did last night. Fake it til you make it, right? I’m trying.