So yesterday I definitely fell off the health wagon. Fell off hard. But, after freaking out a bit this morning by stupidly stepping on the scale (when I was retaining lots of water for lots of reasons!) I realize that today is a new day, and all I can do from this point on is eat as healthily as possible.
The day started off in a very healthy fashion:
I made a smoothie for breakfast starring a pack of Micro Greens I found in the pantry.
I added the greens to a mixture of frozen mango, blueberries, and strawberries. It was delish- I couldn’t taste the green mix at all!
My stomach was grumbling a few hours later, so I had a Bare Naked Fruit & Nut bar.
I wasn’t very hungry for lunch, so I went across the street to a dumpling place that gave you 5 dumplings for $3.50. Not bad! I ordered the lentil/ vegetable dumplings. They were really good but a bit oily for my taste.
But I really liked the lentil/ veggie mixture inside- very creative!
I didn’t have anything else with me for the day (I need to start packing lunch again) so I was staaarving when I got home. I quickly made myself a bowl of veggies with a little bit of blue cheese dressing (my downfall).
And then…. Well, then, Loren and I went out to Grimaldi’s for our favorite pizza in the whole world. It is seriously AMAZING.
Loren was happy!
After waiting in the cold for 30 minutes in line, drinking a glass of red wine, and not eating enough all day, lets just say I lost all willpower. It was bad.
I had way too many of these…
Let’s not talk numbers here.
It was soooo good, and I didn’t even feel that bad when I was eating. But by the time we got home, we both felt sickly full- and I definitely felt the indigestion come on.
When I woke up this morning, as I said, I made the huge mistake of weighing myself (I guess to see the damage or something?). Of course, after wine, a lot of salt, and my period, I am retaining a lot of water and it was not the smartest thing to do. I had a major freakout when I saw the number on the scale (understandably) up a bit. Poor Loren is all I can say…
After an hour of cardio sculpt at the gym and a homemade smoothie, I feel much better and I have a lot more clarity on things. I know that:
a) I am never going to look like a supermodel. And I am never going to weigh 120 pounds. At 5 foot 8 with a very large frame, I need to stop focusing so much on numbers. I need to focus on the way I look and my health. I have lost weight in the last few months, but not as much as I would have liked. But I know I have put on a ton of muscle. My body is definitely much more toned and my clothes fit very differently.
b) If I want to eat a bit of everything instead of poached fish and steamed veggies all day, I need to accept my body for what it is, while continuing to exercise and eat in moderation. The moderation part is what I lacked a bit last night, but, you know what? Everyone falls of the band-wagon. You just have to pick yourself back up!
I am going to do MY BEST to eat cleanly this weekend and this coming week and exercise regularly; but with two meals out tomorrow (because I am seeing friends) it won’t be that easy. Again, I will do MY BEST because that’s all I can do.